Obligations...What are you talking about?!

Writing in that sort of way was not always preferred by the highly esteemed self of mine own; yet, seems like i am liking it, so here i am...rolling!



So many things cross my mind all the time, and since i get a lot of time traveling to and fro my work, which is in Mohandeseen, whereas i live in Heliopolis, the thinking cooks pretty well in my head. When speculating over "obligations", a line of things occurs to me... Looking for matching words for "obligations" would certainly lead to things like "i need", "i have to" and "i must". But according to whom do you actually determine your obligations and their priorities? I believe that you yourself are the major factor to make such decisions.



When i think of my obligations, the first thing that comes to my mind is "make a list", and yes, it works very well. Making a list always sets things forth for you, so you don't forget anything, storing them in your beautiful mind; so thank God for computers, papers and pens! Next, look at your schedule, what do you need to get done first and what can be postponed until later? This is when you are prioritizing. Think of vital things that you can't put off till later, say for example "finishing this report at 2:00 pm". Something like that logically comes before "getting something to snack on", you can always get something to snack on, but if you want to finish your report at the right time, and things could get messed up and piled up for you if you don't, then the snacks can wait! Of course this is a random example, but it's hell clear, to kick off any misunderstandings.



Some things don't need a list to remind you of what you need to get done first. Say you're late for work and you need to catch the bus, do you prepare your breakfast then get dressed, or you get dressed first then grab sth to eat on the go? this is when you use your common sense buddy!

Anyway, back to the point of obligations; the problem lies in the dilemma of different people defining obligations to their own views and arguing over how important they are; whilst they are of no importance at all to others! A good trick here is being aware of the person's background and how their cute brainy works, in order to avoid a senseless clash. Older traditional people usually believe somethings to be disasterously obligatory, while younger generations find them okay to do or not to do. If you're in that situation, simply compromise, if it's a visit to some place you hate, stay a while then take your leave, pretend you're sick to leave, or even catch up with your folks at the destined place later on! Negotiations don't work some many times, when there isn't a clear path between the persons meant, but take a shot, and remember to be calm and reasonable to them, to get your way! If nothing works, seek external help from someone of influence, a dear uncle/aunt, a bro/sis, a kind granny, or even a close family friend. And you know what? sometimes, giving it a good thought could have you convinced that the opposite of what you think is actually right, and that it's good to try to do that thing you believe is a meaningless obligation.

This is all i remember for now lol, my line of thought says "damn it, stop typing granny!"
and you know what? Just never do anything you're not convinced of, follow your guts and your mind and you'll be fine! One more tiny secret here...watch others in similar situations and pick which side you wanna play on.

Love,
Ony

"Love A Little"? Love "What"??!?!

Well, someone told me "you need to love a little more, Omneya". And to be honest, it wasn't just one person, i was told that a few times, in different ways, from different people, according to the situation that required the pretty sentence to pop up. But from where i stand, i don't really see why they should think i didnt show enough love, oh but i remember now, i have a different point of view! Whoever they meant me to love more or show some more care for didnt matter to me, because i had a mind set in another direction, and i saw myself in another way; the whole thing is different.
The way i am saying this makes me seem like i even give a damn about what people think, let alone say, yet, all due respect to some of the people i base this on because i do love them. Anyhow, allow me to list a few things that i believe are worth loving, and showing love through...

*I love kids, no matter how annoying they get, but when i make them smile and when i feel they feel safe with me and are having fun, it means A LOT to me, and hopefully; it's something that they'll remember when i am no longer around.

*I love when hot water flow in the shower in a God given cold day; it makes me feel alive again after feeling like a frozen corpse. And i love when my hair curls up with water and acts funny, i feel beautiful and grateful to the Divine.

*I love when music penetrates my skull through my ear drums, and makes me feel in touch with something undescribable, something that you get from art, and art alone. And again art fascinates me, watching a Ballet or an Opera, listening to long high well performed arias or watching human butterflies...It tickles my mind, and i can't do but smile and stare some more.

*I love when i love a song for a specific line or part, and i make other people listen to it and they shiver; watching their reactions makes me feel i delivered a message, and art tickles more minds and hearts, making me smile again.

*I love when i walk down the street and find everyone minding their own business, yet smiling at you when your eyes meet, not intending harm or desiring perversion; just smiling in peace.

*I love the sea and how the infinite seems to appear right infront of my eyes, but i know it's just a visual trick, out of the inability to see the actual end of the waters. But i enjoy it still, and i feel myself sliding on the other end, gladly...

*I love doing something and expecting nothing in return, yet smiling the widest when something good actually comes back to me. Nothing beats that.

*I love receiving those text msges where i am told "i miss you", or "i love you", or those little things; it makes my day, sometimes week...

*I love bonding with strangers i meet for the first time, because it makes me more confident and assures me that we're just human, what's the worst that could happen? We're all the same in one way or another...

*I love when i read a beautiful piece and i repeate the last words in my head, it just means i was convinced and that i am relating; and if i can relate, then some others are definetely connecting to that too.

*I love how different people are, i just love the boundaries people create to make themselves different, it tells me over and over how creative our nature it- never gets dull!

*I love hugs and kisses, they show how one can drop those very boundaries and let oneself into another's zone, giving them a chance and a way to one's own zone. And you never have to do that if you're not comfortable, so viva body language.


Having second thoughts, i think i love too many things. So, i'll leave those for the sake of it, and i'll ask you to make your own lists. Love differs from one person to another, so don't feel ashamed of how you think of it. We're human, and that is our nature.


Dedicated to "The One"....

Omneya

Bits and Pieces

It's not really hard to just type whatever comes to your mind, the hard part is deciding which part you wanna let out first; which to come off the list first!

Life is pretty eventful, even if you think it's plain and tastless; there is something going on with your life, no wait, it's like a bunch of things one go. Just admit it, and face this fact.

I was watching my brothers' kids today, as they came over to our house...how beautiful they are, different ages up to 8, and different reactions and all that. Then the usual question came "isn't it about time for you too?". Like hello haha, like you can actually schedule things for yourself! I am not even married yet, and that you cant plan to the minute either, things like that just come when the time is right. But the kids still are cute, and i was the nice aunt i should be. I blew colorful balloons, got the babies animal shaped squeaking toys, and gave all the kids their money for the holidays. Does this make anything up? I hope so. At least something to remember me with :)

My supposed to be best friend finally called, and yes, i meant not to call until she does, because i always call...it doesnt really make a god damn difference, but i wanted to see how this time is going to be. We finally went out again together, and there were no hard feelings. I guess the term "best friend" varies a lot from one person to another, one's "confidant" ro watever they call them are rare t hese days, specially when u have something you're ashamed of, something you did in the past, or some fact abotu you that you cant change. But still you need those special people who make you feel that you still belong to this world, so thank you, my friend(s), no matter how different we are and no matter how shitty we think our relation can get sometimes.

Smoking is not really a regular habit of mine, but lately i've been doing it...smoking off those menthol flavoured elegant slim cigarettes, letting out smoke come out of me, taking away some negative energy and some health as well, for a change i believe...or i dont...it doesnt matter!

I'm listening to Anathema's depressing and feelings-shattering lyrics and music, but i just love them.

more to come...

Ony