Bits and Pieces

It's not really hard to just type whatever comes to your mind, the hard part is deciding which part you wanna let out first; which to come off the list first!

Life is pretty eventful, even if you think it's plain and tastless; there is something going on with your life, no wait, it's like a bunch of things one go. Just admit it, and face this fact.

I was watching my brothers' kids today, as they came over to our house...how beautiful they are, different ages up to 8, and different reactions and all that. Then the usual question came "isn't it about time for you too?". Like hello haha, like you can actually schedule things for yourself! I am not even married yet, and that you cant plan to the minute either, things like that just come when the time is right. But the kids still are cute, and i was the nice aunt i should be. I blew colorful balloons, got the babies animal shaped squeaking toys, and gave all the kids their money for the holidays. Does this make anything up? I hope so. At least something to remember me with :)

My supposed to be best friend finally called, and yes, i meant not to call until she does, because i always call...it doesnt really make a god damn difference, but i wanted to see how this time is going to be. We finally went out again together, and there were no hard feelings. I guess the term "best friend" varies a lot from one person to another, one's "confidant" ro watever they call them are rare t hese days, specially when u have something you're ashamed of, something you did in the past, or some fact abotu you that you cant change. But still you need those special people who make you feel that you still belong to this world, so thank you, my friend(s), no matter how different we are and no matter how shitty we think our relation can get sometimes.

Smoking is not really a regular habit of mine, but lately i've been doing it...smoking off those menthol flavoured elegant slim cigarettes, letting out smoke come out of me, taking away some negative energy and some health as well, for a change i believe...or i dont...it doesnt matter!

I'm listening to Anathema's depressing and feelings-shattering lyrics and music, but i just love them.

more to come...

Ony